Sometimes I was wondering if it's me that take things in a hard way  or is it just I'm creating my other imiginary workd where things get simpler and easier than the real world?.I wish things was simpler as if I'm watching the ocean or maybe just watching how the river flows but if I wanted things to be simpler than I'm not certified to be a 20 year old since a normal average 20 year old have a lots of things going on.

Maybe I was crazy because in the middle ot trying to pay attention what the lecturer has to say in front, I would imagine myself that someone would called my phone right now and just tell me that, hey we're going on holidays,so wanna come?.Well my reaction would be that I would shove my things in the bag and other student wil be looking at me because of my abnormal reaction and there running half-way throught the front, I would say to my lecturer that sorry, but emergency case so I have to go.Yeah pretty much all the way back just pack my bags and meet them at the airport then later probaly we decide to go somewhere far.Gosh I am crazy. I wouldnt know if other ppl read this had the same idea when they're stuck somewhere.Gosh, wish I were in Japan right now or maybe South Korea, dreaming of winter or autumm.

    kalau nak ikut bahasa inggeris ialah the idea of waiting is the same as the idea of hoping.Taktaula kalo pendapat orang lain macam mana tapi pernah tak macam rasa satu perkara tuh tak habis kita tunggu dan akhirnya timbul rasa mengharap padahal dah tau awal-awal yang kebarangkalian benda tuh akan terjadi sangat rendah.

    Aku sendiri dulu ada jugak rasa macam menunggu untuk satu benda yang aku tak pasti ataupun pasti yang benda ini akan terjadi tak seperti yang aku inginkan dan dari situ aku mula tunggu dan berharap benda tuh terjadi seperti yang aku nak.Padahal, realiti tuh sendiri tak sesenang seperti yang kita tengok kat drama tv tapi sangatlah rumit sebab tiap waktu kene buat keputusan (aku sendiri paling benci bab ni) sampai nak beli makanan pun kene buatb keputusan,

   Tapi mungkin disebabkan selalu atau sering berada di situasi menunggu dan mengharap,aku lama-lama dah tak percaya dengan benda ni ataupun kalau boleh mengelak ataupun alihkan pemikiran aku dari terlalu banyak planning ke depan sebab aku sendiri rasa benda ni buang masa dan baik gunakan masa itu untuk lakukan satu hal yang jauh lebih penting atau produktif.

Menharap tuh takla salah tapi biarlah kene dengan situasi dan kebarangkalian yang akan berlaku tuh tinggi dan aku tak tipu kalau tiba-tiba benda ajaib boleh terjadi secara tiba-tiba dan mungkin bila di situ cara pemikiran kita berubah sama sekali.

I wouldn;t know that actually there is still someone out there who still read my-blog.At first thinking back I just want to shut down this blog because sometimes you just write everything and somehow u seem attach to it.In malay they woulsa say it "terpaut" and yeah pretty much lately people who drop by just sort of saying and hi and advertise their skills(No offense though but I think it must be one of those free ad's :) ).Anyway since it's been a year I didnt post anything coz there is so called no interesting thing to be said by myself except on what do I see and think most of the times.

I just came back from Bandung for a 2nd time and what can I say but I LOVE THE WEATHER,kayak nyaman banget wherelse in KL I'm sweating like a pig.And the whole point I went to Bandung (beside shopping) is that hunting for their novels and music and  well thank god for the special skill that was given to me, I have no problem when it comes to understanding them even though I just know the meaning "naksir" which is liking someone and in malay proverb it sounds like you just hate the person.

And yeah already I'm finishing my break and my classes are back on track.Herm, I kinda not really looking forward to it because it's been a week im on holiday n the "malas" or lazy term still posted on my forehead.Owgh, beside that I'm looking forward to this indonesian guy who apparently before this walking opposite my direction and simply walk and slam his shoulder to mine and he didnt even say sorry for goodness sake whereas he did see that I;m walking in-front of him,

p/s:- I just found out that he is one my friends friend,,,

Just drop by to say hi..

Current listening to:- Boomkat"What u do to me".

This song I would define it as when girls try to approach a guy at some party or somewhere and they just keeping looking at each other and you have the feeling just wanna get to know the guy and where he's from and probaly this part girls just get damn nervous about it

Anyway that's just what the song was about.My sunday was never getting any better than walk around the mall and notice that there is too much korean and Japanese here in KL and suddenly I feel like I'm not in Malaysia and pretty much me and my sis just enjoy the sound of the language(even though we dont understand at all).There is something bout this guys.To think back they are normal but somewhat different because I like the idea of different anyway and some would say I was just being another malay tak sedar diri (in english they would called forget your roots)coz judging other people than my own race.I mean every people had their own specialty and it's just maybe I don't like the idea of being same all over and how much I like inter-racial.

and yeah people had their own opinion about it and they can say whatver they wanna say.Anyway better get moving since there is nothing much to say and before the whole typing idea thingy turns to rubbish and ending up talking to myself ^_^. Sayonara~

Hmm,saturday is saturday it is (this doesnt make sense at all) and all I can say that some people(which included me)can be damn lazy during weekends.Wake up late,breakfast at some mamak stall and then later goin off somewhere.Pretty much that is how my weekend goes every week or maybe doin some spree cleaning around the house

Thanx to too much progestron in my body, I have changed my habit in shopping from I just window shop or walk around the mall till this miss blonde bimbo (even thought I'm not blond) in which I can't seem to let go off my eye by watching pretty things around hanging and being display at those fake hot-body-curvy manequin.Gosh what happen to the old me?, the one who people would say you pick a guitar and jush smash it to the sound system just like the rock concert.Well there are still remaining part of it and still lives on and just embracing the other part that I pretty much like it.

This is what people say one of those changes when you reach 20's.In malay they would called it "Anjakan Paradigma"(hahaha..aifa ko tau ayat ni) and yeah I'm the another version of Jessica Simpson(this is what my cousin as I was flipping through the catalog..this is nice..owgh..can I have both?..hehe)

Anyway nothing much to say though since it's sunday nite and pretty much I'm here in my room typing so-kinda life to let the public read it while listening to namie amuro-girltalk ^_^

Lari tuh sendiri ada banyak maksud.Lari masaalah, lari dari kenyataan dan lari dari rumah( tuh kerja bodoh namanya) dan bila orang sendiri berhadapan dengan keadaan sebegini mereka akan cuba untuk mengelak dengan pelbagai cara.Kalau lari dari masaalah ialah dengan tidak memikirkan perkara tersebut atau tidur sebab bila tidur,masaalah itu hilang untuk sementara.

Kalau lari dari kenyataan pulak ada macam-macam cara.Kalau akal pendek, bunuh diri orang tuh sebab tak bole menerima sesuatu yang dia tidak bersedia dari segi mental dan fizikal.Manakala,orang yang lari dari rumah selalunya sebab masaalah keluarga dan pada asalnya rumah itu tempat paling aman jadi zon kawasan tak selamat

Bagi aku,aku tak tahu apa yang istimewanya berlari ni padahal aku ni bukan peminat besar dalam bab-bab yang berkenaan dengan mengerakkan terlalu banyak anggota badan tapi sejak kebelakangan ini aku rasa berlari itu agak menyenangkan.Bila aku lari seolah semua masaalah itu hilang sebentar dan minda aku tertumpu dengan niat sebenar aku dan dalam masa yang sama mood atau kepantasan aku lari berdasarkan lagu apa yang dimainkan di telinga aku ketika itu.Aneh bila ada kepenatan dan kurang oksigen untuk bernafas seolah-olah itu melambangkan aku sudah melepaskan masaalah aku satu per satu.Setiap kali aku rasa ingin berhenti sebab keletihan,aku akan memaksa diri untuk terus sambung dan mengatakan pada diri sendiri bahawa destinasi kita selepas ini tak jauh,maka hanya terus bersabar dan berlari.

Mungkin bagi sesetengah orang aku dianggap aneh kerana seolah-olah aku bercakap dengan diri sendiri oleh pihak ketiga tapi secara amnya,itulah yang aku rasakan setiap kali aku berlari atau berjalan dalam jarak yang jauh

Setiap orang ada cara untuk melepaskan masaalah dan kadang-kadang cara mereka jauh lebih aneh.Aperpun jika kita menghadapi satu masaalah, jangan lari tapi ambil masa untuk tenang dah kembalikan rasional kita dan kemudian selesaikan satu per satu dengan sabar dan doa.

Hmm apparently nothing interesting is thursday except went out with my friend and my mum doing some interior shopping and on the way back it was raining

Oh yeah, I'm already starting my holiday .Yeah baby Yeah (I'm doin this Austin Power version).Even though it's for a week but it's good enough mate! and plus there is bunch of things I need to and finish in between one week

Besides doin college stuff,I will be gaining those extra pound by watching anime,some tv show that I swear it doesnt get any good and yeah more mum-daughter outing later.heheh.

Anyway,nothing much to say since I dont no what to type anyway.Jia neh

Sok aku nyer exam economic technique and sesungguhnya tuhan tau betapa pening paler aku untuk subject ni.Salah satu teori yang mengukuhkan hujah aku di atas ialah aku sendiri tak pandai dengan benda-benda yang berkenaan dengan kira-kira atau nombor

Mengikut keputusan peperiksaan juga menunjukkan bahawa subjek baca aku jauh lebih menyerlah dan bintang-bintang dari matematik.Nak kata aku benci subjek ni memang tak sebab aku sendiri pun ada rasa benci dan suka tentang subjek ni.Suka bila dah jalan penyelesaian dan proses untuk mencari jawapan dan benci pulak bila salah kira takpun setengah jalan dah tak ada idea tapi aperpun aku kena luluskan subjek ni sebab subjek ni terikat dengan jurusan yang aku amik sekarang

Tak semua benda yang kita bagus tuh sebenarnya bagus untuk jangka masa panjang dan tak semua benda dalam hidup ini ada pilihan.Nak tak nak kena jugak tempuh sebab kalau tak kita sendiri tak belajar maksud sebenarnya kejadian ataupun kenapa kita terpaksa memilih jalan yang ini padahal jalan lain banyak aje.

Aperpun aku kena jugak usaha.Kalau nak benda tak usaha memang tak ada umphhh(cam iklan teh boh tuh)dan lepas ni aku men-GANBETE kan diri aku sendiri agar aku taklah terasa bodoh dikalangan orang lain

P/s:- Bila belajar subjek ni terasa bodow amat tapi lagi belajar lagi bodow jadiknya sebab makin banyak benda tak tahu :)

It seems that my will wasn't that strong and I always know that. I just can't resist a temptation of doing something else rather than focus on what I should do all along.It seems I lost my bet on this and why is it seem so hard just to sit there and just focus on what you should do and who knows by 2 hours you didn't realise you were there at the exact same place all along

True that I never learn my lesson yet on what I'm suppose to be somewhat older or mature since I already hit the 20's but rather than I'm faking it by saying I'm not a kid but the truth is everyone has their inner-kid and it's just that they want to admit it or not.But oh well, it depends on how people want to put it anyway.

I'm kinda piss-off though coz I can't seem to find torrent or original vcd or dvd of the movie called "waterboys" (japanese movie and it was like 4 years ago it was released and only now I'm tyring to find one if it still available) and thanks for the late saturday evening Japanese drama waterboys2,it does make me somehow change to half of my sister personality (she just love anything japanese....)and now somewhat I had another side of her.

Anyway I'm not giving up to find the movie.Someday,somehow, in someway if there's a luck I would eventually find it at some place